Trusting.

So, I was reminded by a very wise man of God (keith winstead) that the best way to get through allll this craziness in my life is to trust God.

You know not just pray but TRUST that he will come through, that he CAN handle anything, (because really he can!) trust that he is the Almighty one who created everything.

and my problems are so much easier if I just give them up to him, let the weight fall off my shoulders and just breathe.

Also I've realized that the happiest moments in my life are when I'm praising God.

My creater who without I would not exsist.

and without the protection I know I must've had as a child,I never would be where I am today.

I am incredibly blessed to have been where I have been and survived through it all.

But I'm doing more than surviving. I want to live completely and fully for God.

Giving all I am to him and his will.

So I'm starting to do that now.

I'm trying really hard to read my bible daily, which is really my biggest struggle even though i like reading so much.

I never feel like I know where I should read.

Trying to figure that out.

But I do need encouragment and lots of prayers.

and Let me know your prayer needs.

Because I'd love to pray for you!

1 AM blogs.

I have this immense desire to just give up on everything.

Just sit in my room in the comfort of my bed and not care about anything anymore.

Nothing seems to be going right.

I just want to be single for a little bit, and content in that.

But I feel pressured to do otherwise.

I want my family to be safe and happy,

not have my grandfather forgetting why he went to the kitchen and struggling just to write a check.

or my mom to disappear of the planet and not keep her promises like usual.

I want college to go well, and have my financial aid worked out.

I want to not leave people i care about behind or be left either.

I want to live my life to the fullest completely in God's will.

and for people to really udnerstand why God is so important to me.

That I don't think its just a joke.

That to serve and honor God is the reason I breathe and live.

The only reason I decided not to give up.

Is because I remembered telling the admissions counselor in Raleigh that I've never been one to give up and I never do. That I do my best in everything and embrace's lifes challenges.

I just wish I had that same optomism and happiness I had then.

Because right now I feel lost, alone and so unsure.

Another Update since I don't keep this updated.

I am still struggling daily to live my life for God's will.

I graduated the LHGH program, but I know I still have a LOT more to learn!

I also have graduated high school and I've had a pretty chill summer

I'm still planning to go to UNCW as soon as I hear back from financial aid.

and I've prayed for God's will in that, if for some reason my financial aid can't go through this semester I'll just be staying in bo county and figuring out what God does want for my life.

I'm not going to let fear of the un known scare me any longer.

and I do need prayer for my job situation cuz its not too good right now.

I don't have much more to update.

But I am going to try to keep this up and do more meaningful blogs every now and then.

:D

Update

I haven't posted in a long time. So here is my update:

I'm trying HARD to completely embrace God's way and stop following mine.

I'm doing this through an AMAZING program: Life Hurts God Heals.

I attend Generations Church which is the most amazing place and I have been able to grow leaps and bounds in my faith.

I am nearly done with High School, graduating on June 13th.

I am attending UNCW in the fall (as long as all my financial aid works out)

Megan Murphy, Kellie Bliss, and Hope Lewis are my closest friends right now.

I turn 18 at the end of this month.

I am a twitter addict. :]

and I just had delicious tacos made by my grandpa and made the BIGGEST mess eating them!

Word.

1 I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,
and he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground
and steadied me as I walked along.
3He has given me a new song to sing,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see what he has done and be amazed.
They will put their trust in the Lord.
Psalm 40: 1-3 (New Living Translation)




I waited and waited and waited for God. At last he looked; finally he listened.
He lifted me out of the ditch,
pulled me from deep mud.
He stood me up on a solid rock
to make sure I wouldn't slip.
He taught me how to sing the latest God-song
a praise-song to our God.
More and more people are seeing this:
they enter the mystery,
abandoning themselves to God.
Psalm 40: 1-3 (The Message)